Before coming to know Jesus I tried to fill the God-sized hole in my heart with things. I was lustful for things, clothes I wouldn’t wear, journals I wouldn’t even write in, candles I wouldn’t burn. You name it, if it was pretty I wanted it. Now that I know Jesus as my Savior I know that no amount of stuff can bring me joy, only He can do that. But my habit of wanting things is a harder habit to kick than I thought. When I have a bad day I can sometimes find myself wanting to go buy something to make me feel better instead of just turning to God in prayer.
This habit becomes even more of struggle when it comes to blogging. I see these other bloggers with GORGEOUS homes that are so perfectly put together and it makes me want to replace my floors like yesterday. So why blog? Because it makes me happy, I just have to learn that making my home beautiful is like my walk with The Lord, it takes time. As soon as I became a Christian it’s not like all of this knowledge about God, Jesus and the Word got downloaded into my brain, I had to study, pray and listen to sermons, to learn these things and I’m still learning more each day. Just like my house won’t be completely and perfectly furnished overnight, we have to make the money to purchase each item one at a time. It even took God 7 days to make our world and all the things to go in it and if it took him seven days to make all that why do I think I can accomplish something SO much smaller so quickly (p. s. I’m sure He could’ve done it all in a day if He wanted to).
There’s times that I feel silly for struggling for wanting things, but really it’s something everyone struggles with especially since it’s shoved down our throats by society that we have to have lots of money and stuff to be considered important and valuable and that we have our life “together”.
But my God says different. The best way to know what He says is to turn to His word and these are the verses I’m keeping in my heart:
When I’m tempted to buy things I do not need:
“No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.” 1 Corinthians 10:13
“For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your ancestors, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect.” 1 Peter 1:18-19
“What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul?“ Matthew 16:26
When I’m worried what others will think of my imperfect house:
“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will” Romans 12:2
“Better is a poor man who walks in his integrity than a rich man who is crooked in his ways.” Proverbs 28:6
And to remind myself I am not the girl whose bank account would continuously be empty to fill the emptiness in her heart:
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!” 2 Corinthians 5:17
One thing that people sometimes don’t quite get is that after we’re born again through the blood of Christ is that we will still struggle with the things we did before. The difference is we no longer have to rely on our own strength to overcome the temptations but that we can rely on God’s mighty strength to lead us away from them just like 1 Corinthians 10:13 says.
God continuously does work in my heart and I can see a difference in my old life and the new life I have in Him. To be witness in my own life, that’s how I know God always takes broken things and makes them beautiful.