It’s certainly been awhile since I’ve been on here. And if you follow along with me on my Instagram account you’ll know that back in February the Lord led me away from from blogging. I always meant to address it here but I just couldn’t muster up the energy for a long time.
Starting in January, I had felt Him leading me away from blogging but I didn’t want to admit. I wouldn’t even speak it out loud. Until finally during prayer I asked God that if it was what He wanted that He would make it beyond clear. That was on a Friday. The following Sunday at church the sermon was titled refinished or distressed. My pastor opened it talking about distressed furniture, clearly speaking my language, ha! The sermon ended up being about idols and the blog was on my mind the whole time.
“Okay God I’m giving it over to you.” I didn’t want to give it up, I felt like a toddler who didn’t want to share. But I wanted to be obedient more than I wanted my blog. I didn’t know if it would be a give it up forever or give up temporarily situation. I asked Him to show me exactly what it would look like and to change my heart for His. And He did. Within a week I went from not wanting to give it up to being completely done with it. I had one final collaboration and I didn’t even want to finish that, but I did. And I haven’t logged on again since (until now).
I laid it all down at His feet.
And then two months later He called me to something different. I said yes and jumped in and I LOVE it! I’m excited to share more about it soon.
Since then I’ve had time to reflect on this space of the internet. I realized a couple things. 1)That initial Sunday morning the Lord revealed to me I had created my blog to give myself glory and not to glorify Him. 2)It had also strayed from the purpose that I had even created the blog for. And the schedule and pressure I was putting on myself was stealing my joy.
I created this to be a home decor blog. And I love that I was able to intertwine motherhood into it because when you become a mom it becomes such a huge part of you. But the majority of my motherhood posts were so I could get sponsored opportunities. And they were suffocating me.
The hustle of it all was literally draining the life from me and I didn’t feel like it was worth it. Plus, most of the sponsored posts I did centered around motherhood. And to be quite honest there was a fine line where I felt like I was exploiting my child for money. Now if you’re a blogger and you do campaigns that are focused on your child please know I don’t think that of you. It’s just the feeling I had in my gut every time I hit the publish button. Plus I’m paranoid and am afraid of creeps stealing photos of my child because unfortunately it does happen (and because of that most of the pictures you see of her now, either I’m in the photo too or she’s not looking at the camera dead on).
After realizing these things. I slowly began to miss blogging for me. And I began to pray about whether or not starting back up would be the right thing to do sans sponsored posts.
Picking it back up feels right. In fact I feel the Lord pushing me toward it, but with different direction.
Here’s the thing, I think we all spend so much time fretting over God’s will for our lives. But 1 Corinthians 10:31 says “So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God”. I think if what we’re doing is in line with scripture and we’re doing it with a hope to bring glory to the Lord and not ourselves, then He is pleased with us. Does He guide us in the way we should go? Absolutely.
Our satisfaction comes from Jesus alone. It’s when we search other things to fill us that a problem arises.
So moving forward here’s what to expect. I’m going to be talking more about home decor/DIYs. There will still be free printables. There will be posts on wellness and clean living. There will be posts about Jesus. There will still be some motherhood, but there will be less, and less pictures of my daughter. There’s not likely to be sponsored posts. Like I said the hustle hit me hard. And right now I just have no intention of seeking any out in this season of life. And if they do appear know that it is something I fully stand behind.
Now I can’t say when or how often I’ll post. I’m not placing a schedule on myself because that a big part of what took the fun out of me the first time. I love this space and I hope to post often but I know myself and I know life and both can get a little overwhelming.
My hope is to rebrand in the future as well. It’s no longer just me and Lady. But that cost money so we’ll see.
I’m no longer allowing the world to distress me but allowing the Lord to refinish me and this space He’s blessed me with.
Now if you’re still reading after all that know that I have fondness for you!
If we’re not already friends over Instagram I’d love to be! I’m on there quite often and would love for you to join me.
Until next time sweet friends!